Fiddlerman said
Great jeans to say the least.

It’s genes, actually 

And I hear ya... I do, in fact, tend to push myself maybe a bit.  And you’re not the first person to mention this.  My best friend, a violist, has expressed the same concern that I may be trying to reach a little beyond my grasp and she reminds me that the violin, and all string instruments are relatively difficult and require time and patience to master.  And that some of the skills can take months or years to develop, depending on the individual player.  She’s right, and you’re right.  

Thank you @damfino 

@AndrewH yes I have thought many times about the expectations I have had of myself to progress at a certain pace and to have goals and reach certain milestones.  I think for me it is very motivating and helpful to have realistic goals.  And it is very satisfying to be able to reach them.  But I know the dangers of wild expectations and the disappointment of not meeting them.

@coolpinkone thank you so much!  This forum is always so welcoming!

@bluesviolin can I assume you are a blues violinist?  So, right now I am taking private lessons and we are still working on basics (1st position, a few basic scales, the ever improvement of intonation, 4th finger strengthening, etc.).  Yes, I have played mainly in orchestras (prior to violin) all throughout my musical life.  I am open to many genres for violin.  In the future, I do hope to play for people to enjoy music such as for family and church some day or even for volunteer work.  I do want to join a community orchestra and play classical pieces, likely during holiday times.  I do not have any plans at this time to play professionally.