Good evening ! I am new in talking on forums, subscribing in a social site like this and new in the fiddlerman site too and I would like some help, PLEASE !!!

I used to be in an orchestra a long time ago after learning the violin after I was done with high school ! I am from the Caribbean and playing music in my country is a luxe! 

I stopped due to some personal reasons and someone broke my violin. I have a violin now and it is after looking at my old violin books and methods that I realize my last lesson lasted from November 2003 so it has been 15 years since i have been not in an orchestra I left the music school. I saw that my exercice books have 11 - 1- 2003 on the F. Wohlfart, Op. 45 Sixty Etudes for Violin, Book 1, No. 24 and 3 weeks ago I saw that I was in Suzuki Violin Book 3, Concerto in A Minor, 1rst movement by A. Vivaldi and saw some remarks on the Concerto in A Minor, 3rd movement by A. Vivaldi. I cried that day because I asked myself :

1) What did I do? 2) Where and how the years did go? 

When I left the orchestra I was entering the first year of state university and from where I come from being admitted in a state university is a big deal because thousands of people come to take a test and they will accept only 100 and sometimes 200. And the university I went to was oppening only in the afternoon and sometimes the orchestra practiced or prepared concerts in the evenings and afternoons, I was having some problems with keeping my place at the orchestra and doing my best to keep working and studying hard to pass the first year of the university in order not to be kicked out if I don't pass the year so I left the orchestra.

The next year my country had a major political problem and almost decent things stopped to work or were working timidly for 2 years and sometimes people could not go to certain places where it was dangerous to go or walk and that is where the music school was at that time so I definitely stopped everything even the thought of coming back to playing again in the orchestra. I remained faithful to listening to some classic songs, sometimes I played my violin and sometimes I didn't.     

I played in some bands (christians and other ones) playing at weddings and certain public events from 2005-2008 ! And then one day someone broke my violin and I stopped for good because having a violin or buying one over there was also a luxe even if it was a student one ! The person broke it but did not tell me that, I guess it slipped or fell on his / her hand, it was someone who was helping me doing some cleanings that year ! I can say that I neglected my violin also because I realized that a year after it was broken. 

Now, I have a violin and I want to play it again ! I had it last year, sometimes I play certain songs on the net, seeking some violin sheet musics and trying to play them too. I can play '' A thousand years'' by Christina Perri and play some musics with flats. I would like to start all over again because I kinda feel that I lost the vibrato sensation and method too and sometimes my bow is dancing in other words it is not '' right'' ! sometimes I practice and sometimes I don't so I can say that the Wolfhart and Whistler book 1 are not in my mind and fingers. 

I think I talk too much so ANYONE who would like to help me understand and learn the process to play from the beginning again is sure Welcomed; that will make my day! I can say that I can dedicate 1 hour each day to practice and learn how to play violin correctly or properly again if I am directed to the right path ! 

I thank god for the good side of technology because if I had it you were there (fiddlerman and you) and it was accessible or reachable to me like this a long time ago, I can pretty say that I wouldn't have let all this time wasted !

I forgot to say that I met a bind friend through my violin journey who played violin and was in the orchestra like me and we left without knowing it for the same reasons (couldn't find teachers, political and university matters), we kept being at the same university and after some natural catastrophes like political ones and the 2010 earthquake which hit our country, we stopped. after some months or years, he played his violin and now he teaches some children and teenagers too. He wants to help me play again but I haven't started yet, I intend to meet him next week and take some advice from him. I told him about the forum and fiddlerman site and he is excited to take part in the Christmas project 2018. I will take his advice and help but I would like ANYONE from the forum help me too to understand, be active and take the most out of what the fiddlerman site is giving ! It is a BLESSING to have such an opportunity like this and I don't want to miss it ! I missed almost 15 years of playing the violin well and I don't want to waste or miss any ! 

I am from the Caribbean and I would like to be helped like a long sea lost in the ocean which would like to be rescued !!!    

                                                                                      Hellamo / Helmckee

P.S. 

I would like yo play the ''Beethoven's 5 secrets on my violin and Albinoni Adagio in G minor on my violin !