To begin with, I am ashamed because I must keep my name private. I live in Sibiu, Romania. I have studied violin since I was 7. I have gone through a lot in life and I am now 26. The violin was for me like a god and my teacher - he was like more than a parent for me - he was a remarkable person.
I used to be a really really good violinist but there were a lot of ups and downs. I was not aware of the type of things that are required in order to become a great artist. I was pretty good up until high school. I have managed to finish the local high school of arts and I hold a certificate in violin - in legal terms, I am a certified musician and I can play pretty much wherever I want in my country.
Now my teacher was pretty good - when I was a very very small kid he had this fantastic girl as a student. The room in which he taught violin to that remarkable student was very large. The sounds that came out of her violin were absolutely mind blowing in every way. Her attitude was simply out of this world, the way she handled her instrument was a subject of extreme and pure fascination for me. I was absolutely willing to go through heaven and hell and through the upmost torture just to become like her and astonish people.
It did not take long until I was able to master the material. I made huge progress pretty fast and every teacher in my school was simply surprised by my abilities. When I used to play my violin I had that vision of that girl and all of my soul was in the song and all of my mind was on the outer beauty of that remarkable student. I can never forget this. I did receive a prize for my audition back then.
Things did not last that long because I became engaged in all sort of dumb activities that high school students do. I began to ignore my violin even though I knew deep deep inside of my soul that it was an absolutely huge mistake to ignore studying. When I was a senior in high school I have realized that life is also about hard work and I began to work very hard on my goal to go to the music academy. I was simply not good enough and to be quite honest - going to a music academy in Romania means a lot as competition is absolutely huge and it is extremely tough - you need to work very very hard in order to survive in the first year at a music academy here.
Unfortunately I was not able to go to that academy but I know that I am fully able to play almost anything that I want. I can even play Paganini but the unfortunate fact is that I had some personal problems... my brother went in jail... sold his violin... now I have barely been able to fix my old violin. The last time when I played my violin was at my local community college and I am thankful because of a great teacher that knew about my talents - she invited me in in order to get exposure. I was such an ignorant during my teens as I have not realized that exposure is absolutely critical in this industry... What can I do in order to recover after a 4-year-old break... I feel absolutely horrible in any single way... my real life career is ruined... I still do not have a stable job in a company... however I do not need one anyway... I feel as if I am incomplete without my violin and I am starting to ask myself what has prevented me to abandon my instrument for so long? now that I know what has prevented me I am sure that nothing will prevent me from studying and learning new songs on my violin but how can I prepare mentally after such a long break from studying? I feel so overwhelmed and excited in the same time... it is as if I have rediscovered myself once again.
I know what you mean, when I quit the violin over a decade ago.
When the thought of the instrument lingers in your head as you day-dream about virtuous performances.
think of those four years as a time of mental maturing. And you have mentally practiced the violin I am sure - it's just as important to do so.
Now you must get back into practicing and implementing those day-dreams and mental exercises on a real violin. You can now play just as you've always wanted! It's wonderful because you've had time to think about it and now you can impress yourself with the challenges you've thought of and you will surpass them easily because you have mentally prepared for this moment.
Nothing is holding you back in anymore. You have the maturity and will power now. So grab your instrument and practice what your mind has dwelled upon.
Maybe you should try freestyle-violin like myself so that you can have more fun without being restricted to music scores. Especially because you have well beyond basics of violining I.E. You already know how to play the instrument. Check out my newest video and see what I mean by freestyle violin.
That is great advice. I can say that in these 4 years I have had the opportunity to ask myself - what do I really want to do with my life? where is this life taking me? it is absolutely astonishing that I will return back to my violin after so much time... my friends are just amazed about my comeback.... I feel as if I have rediscovered myself...
Welcome to the forum and back the the violin,
Recovering from an extended Break, back to basics, long slow bows on an open strings, scales, etudes etc. to get back into shape. Fun? Maybe not, but it will pay quick dividends in getting back into shape.
Video tape your self and access your playing. it's really amazing how much this helps you to see what you need to work on.
Good luck, look forward to seeing your progress
Master the Frog and you have mastered the bow.
I think most of us know what it's like to be obsessed / possessed with the violin. very few can make a good living at it for one reason or another. You can only do what you can do....keep playing one way or another.
you mentioned in your other post that your 'identity' was tied to the violin...same here.
I've been at it for 40 years, and sometimes when I hear someone play so much better than I can, I think.....I've wasted my whole life on this thing', but then I come to my senses and I realize, what else could I have done that is better than being able to play the violin....nothing!
I've had jobs, house mortgage, and helped to raise two wonderful children along the way, and consider myself very blessed. but I've also been thru some very rough times. haven't we all?
btw...I used to have a fairly nice Romanian violin, a Simon Jozsef. Romania, Hungary etc. is the birthplace of Gypsy violin, yes? I luv gypsy violin, but can only play 2 or 3 Gypsy songs. One is called 'Sorrow Sunday'.
"Striving to attain Mediocrity"
To encourage you...I played in Jr. & High school in the late 60's then stopped no violin of my own. I always love the violin. So here we are in June 2016. I am so motivated and have been playing almost daily. So I KNOW you can do it!!!! It;s never too late to (re)start! Have fun & enjoy your heart's desire to play
It has all been great. I have recovered very fast and this is yet another proof of the fact that i have some talent. I have this old steiner copy and I love it. I truly believe that the forests of Romania can provide one of the best violins in the world. I am very happy to live in Romania due to the fact that I can buy high quality violins at a dirt cheap price here. With proper research anybody can buy a great violin that looks and sounds good at a dirt cheap price here. Many people export violins from Romania to other countries. If you would ever like anything from Romania you can always ask me. Due to the fact that communism came in this country the violin industry was rather stagnant... the country is full of old abandoned violins through houses and even new violins that are just waiting to be bought. There is even a story that somebody found a Strad here but nobody did any sort of research (nobody cares about art in Romania ... people think that the violin is just a cheap and traditional instrument that should be in any home).